"We don't receive wisdom, we must discover it for ourselves." - Marcel Proust

Yesturday I got the news that my family has just expanded.  My step-sister Jen gave birth to a adorable baby boy named Riley.  So of course I was thinking today about my family.  There is no real easy way to break down my family.  There is me, my sister and my mom.  My mom got re-married to a guy who also had two children.  So right there my family doubled.  Now both of his kids are married and each have two kids.  So again it is now about 4 times as big.  When trying to describe my relation to some of the people, I have had to use terms like step-brother in law and step nephew.  But after a while I just dropped the step part.  Some people (outside my family) have tried to tell me that they arent really family and just related through marriage.  I say BS.  I realized that my "family" is no where near the typical family but if you knew me, you would know thats how I like it.  I love my family and wouldnt have anything different.  I now have 4 nephews, 2 sisters, 1 older brother, 2 dads, 1 mom and a crap load of puppies.  Now this isnt count grandparents or anything. 

Its nice to know that even with divorce and death, you can still have a big family full of love and care for one another.  When my dad left when I was 8 I thought I was only going to have my mom and sister and see my dad twice a week.  But now with the family I got, wow.... I couldnt be any luckier.  So welcome to the world Riley!!!  Its a great place and we will try our best to see that you can get the most out of it.  Peace!

Well talk about a good weekend.  I turned 21 this Sunday.  So of course I did the whole going out at midnight the night before.  That was fun.  And I went out Sunday night also which was just as good!  I never got too sick and nothing bad happened because the people I went out with would make sure nothing bad happened.  So today I wasent feeling good enough to go to class so I stuck around here and got some stuff done that I put off all break.  So now that Im 21, what do I know of life.  Nothing!!!  I looked over my past blogs and I keep trying to define life and list rules to live by.  Well I dont think I can do that, not because I dont have the expirence or some how impowered to do that, but I just dont think you can.  So here it is, after 21 years of life I have this to say for it. 

Its fun!
You will always have your ups and downs.
At times you may not know who you are or where you are going, but you will find it again.
People who want to be in your life will be in your life, as long as you dont push them out.
Roads run two ways, and so do relationships!
The stuff that you were worried about when younger means shit, so dont risk your future on today.
Think outside the box, and always put yourself in others shoes no matter how hard it may be
Everyone has a right to live, you dont have the right to judge them
Give people the benefit of the doubt (unless you think they are evil, then avoid them)

Last and final thought:  Dont listen to me, if you havent figure this out for yourself, then you wont realize it by reading this.  Go out and live your life and discover all these things.  I still have more to discover so Ill see you out there on the great field of life.  PEACE!

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Cant figure it out?  Dont worry, no one can.  So if there is no answer then why worry about it.  Stop trying to figure out life and live it.  Whats more fun, trying to figure out how to play a game by reading all the rules and regulations, or just start playing and learn as you go?  Thats life, learn as you go.  So put down the rule book, grap your gear and get out on the field, you never know what you will do in life until you get out there.  Go and enjoy all that you can and when you are lying on your death bed, lay there with a smile knowing you lived and now you are ready to take a break and watch others play from the sidelines.  Peace

I meant to put this up lastnight but I started playing a game and lost track of time, then I went to bed.  Anyway, during my ussual Thrusday night class I sit there and try to count all the hairs on my arm.  The prof is cool and all but he is just talking about stuff I could really care less for.  Except for lastnight.  Lastnight he gave us some "Life Lessons" as he put it.  This caught my attention so I listened and Im glad that I did.  Here is just a brief explanation of what he was talking about.  I figure this is something every needs to hear or read!!!  SO READ!

Your future is always going to be unwritten.  No one can tell you what you are going to be doing in year let alone a week.  Live your life to your degree.  It may not always match up with people around you, but as long as you remember that everyone has the right to live the way they want (to a certain degree) then treat them with respect or at least tollerance.  Treat others with respect, unless they do something to lose it, then treat them with tollerance and if they loose that then ignore them.  Life will have many challenges, and at times you will be down.  Look at it this way, you are still down for two reasons: One you have given everything you have and still cant get up, in which case you are resting to regain strength to have another try.  Second, you gave up.  Never be the second one.  Always have faith in something, if not in a God then in yourself.  Patience is a usful life tool, practice it as often as possible. 

These were just some of the life lessons, and they seem like really good ones we should always try to remember.  If you want more or are interested in them, go ask your grandparents.  9 out 10 times your grandparents will have these and better ones because they have lived life, been there and done that, been to the end of the world and back.  That was his last one, talk with the elders.  They have so much knowledge (not useless info) and are just acheing to share with us.  Have a good day and weekend everyone.  PEACE